Hopeless...

I'm like an idiot.Getting all excited by myself.Hoping...Hoping for him to come...Even though he won't come.Why am I cooking even though I'm hopeless excited?Because it's my birthday?I wanted to have a happy bithday...I already know...Destiny cannot be changed.I already know everything.Because I know,that's why I...I'm always lying...That's why I don't want to let it go...That's why I'm still dreaming for him to come...I know what he thinks,but I'm acting like I don't...Because I don't want to change my feelings...Sriously,why am I hoping?